COMFY IN MY OWN SKIN

***COMFY IN MY OWN SKIN***

It was in basic 2 I first met her just when she started newly in my school and I love everything about her, the way she speaks, the way she stands, the way her eyes rolls when she talks, the way she pronounces, my God her smile is so captivating and are beauty and skin is like an attractive light shinning so bright not just in the darkness but also when the sun is at its brightest.

In less than a day this girl became the most popular girl in school and the most beautiful girl, a week later she is the school queen and all boys in that school wants a piece of her even other schools comes around just to see her and am sure some girls would wish she is lesbian so they can have her but she is straight. All guys around her are either rich or friends with rich guys but must be handsome too plus she is also brilliant and also from a rich background, this girl is the definition of perfect.

Me on the other hand lives in a one room apartment with 5 others; a sister and two brothers and mum and dad but so in love with an impossible to date lady and that makes me not love me and my life at all. My best friend is a funny dude who will say to me you two are just so perfect together but only if you ask her out and I will be like "dude, are you crazy or just sick?" 

Many years passed by and now we all made it still to the same university same department (we have had same classes all our lives but never spoke to each other). Final year at school we are preparing for a departmental party and again the most beautiful and sweetest girl in the university is still this dream girl of mine who is so brave to talk to anyone but me because am such a lowlife from a poor family and even me hates me for being me. As the party preparation was going on, a lecture called me and asked me to go tell my dream girl to come see him in his office after last hours of the day so I went to my bestie and over to give him 20thousand naira if he goes over and tell her but my bestie who loves money so much turned me down saying he wants me to do it myself and I couldn't so he pushed me to her (first time in my life am standing right next to an angel I dream of daily), 

Dream girl: Hi 

Me: Hello

Dream girl: How can I help you...?

Me: iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......iiiiiiii..kliihjkhuij (I became so uncomfortable and vomited on her in front of the whole school)

She was angry n many made videos and emoji of that incident and I ran away...

It took me a month before I could come back to school again but this time I withdraw almost all my life savings and bought me nice dresses and big phone and started spending lavishly like other cool guys and like that I joined the famous group of guys and began rolling with lots of girls (a different identity and I go by my middle name now and that was wen my dream girl noticed me and no one remembers that broke ass guy again)

On my dream girls birthday I was invited because am not a cool guy and I walked up to her and asked she dance with me and the funniest part was that she said okay and we danced and I was so happy afterwards.

3 months later as friends I asked her out and she said NO...

Me: I am the coolest guy in school and you don't wanna go out with me, why is that?

Dream girl: AM so sorry, you are cool but I love another person and I can't go out with you.

Me: Is it Samson, David, Rahp ..... (I mentioned all cool n rich guys in school)

Dream girl: None of them and I really don't want any of them.

Me: (my response wasn't from my heart but I said this) If you love him then go tell him...

Dream girl: I don't think I can (She ran away crying)

This mad Me so sad and I just stopped being cool and went back to my old boring and broke self.

One day, at a party in school I was sitting down lonely all by myself no friend nobody to talk to because when I was being a cool guy I forgot my main friend and now am lonely, then someone called my broke ass name and I turned back and answered yea ( to my greatest surprise it was my Dream girl)

Dream girl: hi

Me: iiiiiiiii jjkk nyjjjjj (Stammering) heeelllooo

Dream girl: A friend once told me if I love someone I should just go to the person and tell him, I love you and I don't know if you do love me back.

Me: You know my name... (Surprised)

Dream girl: I have loved you since basic 2 and as bold as I am I can talk to anyone but afraid of you, I don't like all these guys but you because your life is just so perfect.

Me: I did asked you out

Dream girl: That wasn't you, that was somebody else like every other guys who thinks that is what or who i want, i love you the way you are and i won't change a thing about you because you are perfect and every guy should wish they are like you.

Me: But i don't have money to take you out to fancy restuarants or nice places...

Dream girl: it's fine and i will be rich for both of us if you would have me.

Me: Yes i would and i will have you because i have always wanted and needed you since basic 2 also.

They lived happily ever after....

The end...

We always think its nice to live fancy and forget the person we are, we want to be somebody else just so we can get want we want. It's fine if who or what you want don't want you back because of who you are but if you have to change you just to get what you want then that isn't you at all because the moment you get it you might change back to you and still lose it or you keep living a fake life.

Don't let other people talk you down or there life intimate you to hating yourself, no one loves who doesn’t first love themselves for only and only when you love who you are, that is when others can love you.

Do not allow you friends, pastors, parents etc talk you to be who you are not as long as you are not doing what God doesn't want you to do. Be you at home, work, church, school etc...

N.B.

Some partners or partners to be wants you to change or step up your ways before or to continue dating you, that is some fucked up shit; the best relationship is the one you're true to yourself and your partner or partner to be is true to his/herself too.

Be comfortable with you

Author: Damsky Bola 

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